The Beautiful and Damned.

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"1. There will be several days that you daydream about stepping in front of a city bus. Don’t. It..."

Tue, 14 May 2013 17:39:46 -0400

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1. There will be several days that you daydream about stepping in front of a city bus. Don’t. It will not be beautiful. It will not be brave. It will be selfish. It will be broken. Your mother will cry.

2. Don’t write for him. Write for you. Write for others like you. Write so the girl that thinks about stepping in front of public transportation doesn’t. Don’t be selfish.

3. When you will yourself to sleep and it doesn’t come- get up. It doesn’t matter that it’s 3 am. There will be other 3 am’s. Take a shower. Take two. Wash him out of your hair. Write a poem. Read the same book you’ve read 202 times again. The 203rd time might tell you something different. Don’t stay in bed- you will think about the bus again.

4. Don’t kiss him because he’s broken. Don’t kiss him because his laughter never reaches his eyes. Don’t try and fix him. Fix yourself first. Be selfish. He can’t save you.

5. Date yourself. Take yourself out to eat. Don’t share your popcorn at the movies with anyone. Stroll around an art museum alone. Fall in love with canvases. Fall in love with yourself.

6. Dress up and wear red lipstick and get drunk with your friends. They’re the ones that will pick you up. Don’t kiss him. Or him. Don’t fall asleep on strange couches with strange boys. When his hand slides up your dress walk away. Hit him. Don’t kiss him. He can’t save you.

7. Get another tattoo. Get five more. Get another hole in your ear. Don’t listen to your dad. You will still be able to get a job. Did you really want to be employed by someone like your father? Haven’t you had enough of judgmental old white men anyway? Get fuck you tattooed in tiny letters on your hip.

8. When you feel the yearning for a new city- start over. Take 200 bucks and a three suitcases. Work anywhere that will have you. Meet strange people and forget your name. Call yourself Ruby. No one will know the difference. Remember to call your mother. Don’t be selfish. Come home when you find yourself in the strangers and the small one bedroom apartment.

9. Don’t whisper evil things into your own ear. Other people are going to shout them at you. Be your own hero. Keep a sword on your key ring.

10. Don’t step in front of a city bus. It will not be beautiful. Live. Stay up all night with a boy that promises you everything and means it. Live. See shitty local bands with a friend. Wear a different band’s t-shirt. No one will care. Live. Have a baby girl with tiny fingers and tiny toes someday. Pour love into her until it’s overflowing. Live. Wake up. Staying in bed all day is not poetic.

Live. Live.

Live.

Do you hear that? It’s me. It’s your life. Wake up.

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(via victorielle)

"Writers end up writing about their obsessions. Things that haunt them; things they can’t forget;..."

Tue, 07 May 2013 19:33:46 -0400

“Writers end up writing about their obsessions. Things that haunt them; things they can’t forget; stories they carry in their bodies waiting to be released”

- Natalie Goldberg (via writingsinthestars)

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Sat, 04 May 2013 20:07:24 -0400

what the fuck am I passionate about?

Wed, 01 May 2013 20:53:49 -0400

what the fuck am I passionate about?

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Wed, 01 May 2013 20:52:57 -0400

"Well, let it pass, he thought; April is over, April is over. There are all kinds of love in the..."

Wed, 01 May 2013 20:38:15 -0400

“Well, let it pass, he thought; April is over, April is over. There are all kinds of love in the world, but never the same love twice.”

- F. Scott Fitzgerald, Magnetism (via theotherway)

"You’ll be fine. You’re 25. Feeling unsure and lost is part of your path. Don’t avoid it. See what..."

Fri, 26 Apr 2013 23:43:00 -0400

“You’ll be fine. You’re 25. Feeling unsure and lost is part of your path. Don’t avoid it. See what those feelings are showing you and use it. Take a breath. You’ll be okay. Even if you don’t feel okay all the time.”

- Louis CK (via caughtbythewindow)

"Art is to console those who are broken by life."

Thu, 25 Apr 2013 14:34:55 -0400

“Art is to console those who are broken by life.”

- Vincent Van Gogh (via ambling)

"It’s not childish to hold on to hope. It’s actually hard - very, very hard."

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 21:51:54 -0400

“It’s not childish to hold on to hope. It’s actually hard - very, very hard.”

- Dr. Isobel Stevens (via ohfairies)

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Sun, 21 Apr 2013 01:02:58 -0400

"You have to decide who you are and force the world to deal with you, not with its idea of you."

Sat, 20 Apr 2013 01:38:15 -0400

““You have to decide who you are and force the world to deal with you, not with its idea of you.””

- James Baldwin (via eatcakey)

reasons why james baldwin is my favorite writer and one of my favorite humans.

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Wed, 17 Apr 2013 21:44:52 -0400

daedgirl: Reasons To Be Happy: Dead trees still stand and so can you. You have five fingers on each...

Wed, 17 Apr 2013 21:37:20 -0400

daedgirl:

Reasons To Be Happy:

Dead trees still stand and so can you.

You have five fingers on each hand. One day those fingers will travel from your lap to someone else’s and that person will know all the bad stuff and still want to kiss you.

Seasons are guaranteed when nothing else seems to be.

Sun, 14 Apr 2013 23:33:48 -0400

I don’t usually post my own writing or my own personal thoughts on this blog, I prefer to do...

Wed, 10 Apr 2013 21:55:31 -0400

I don’t usually post my own writing or my own personal thoughts on this blog, I prefer to do my self-reflection in a journal. A journal that in the past 4 days has been abandoned as I struggle to piece together the last week. I have spent the last 5-ish months in a what I believed was a loving, easy, wonderful relationship. I am not sure what happened, but it ended on Friday. I sit here trying to find an answer. My intuition is blocked, I have no idea what is going on and I feel lost. A deep sadness has found a home in my gut and I feel ill. My body aches from a lack of sleep and a lack of food, I am tired. So where do I go from here? I know I am never going to receive an answer, I am never going to know what went wrong, and with that I must find acceptance. Acceptance in the unknown, and maybe that’s for the best.

"Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of..."

Wed, 10 Apr 2013 01:16:30 -0400

“Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering.”

- By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept by Paulo Coelho (via maddierose)

"When we maintain our motivation we often find, to our surprise, that we have more energy than we..."

Wed, 10 Apr 2013 01:07:35 -0400

“When we maintain our motivation we often find, to our surprise, that we have more energy than we thought; that the hardships or obstacles we face aren’t as intense, scary, or prohibitive as they initially appeared. We begin to experience a subtle and inspiriting joy in stepping farther away from our comfort zones.”

- Tsoknyi Rinpoche (via meditationsinwonderland)

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